now

and I am happy....
going to file my taxes for 2015...












Those youth years...
Everything was closed, shops are empty, 
And you don't see any of it.
Spring in your mind and in the heart, dance music on TV and comedians with every day fun,
Happiness, plans for going to another city on the street market where we used to buy clothes, fancy shoes matching the skirt, making a dress from my mother’s old dress, knitting a sweater,
That's all I think I had in mind most of that time...





I am thinking to write something like
Special, spring and smile,
What word to say first.. 
With funny ideas feeling like fifteen again,
Just thought about very youth days
 When all you care is love, dressing nice 
and looking good..
Just reminded me, and that time flew back,
Freshness of those year, 
One of the best mornings..
And from day one I was told that
Everything is going to be fine,
This how it is
Smile :) 




Good morning :)


just one smile :)

I was looking for something warm,
So here go, the sun..
Everything is good and will be,
You look amazing,
I have to go now..
Smile :) 

Good night :)









Smile :)

Good mood..just saying. .
and have to charge my phone,
that's all the news ..








One day this day will be a dream..
And I am thinking what I was thinking yesterday.
I was thinking about life..
Another time I was thinking about life was the time
When I was sitting in the car at the red light,
In the middle of the intersection with a huge sign "new driver",
I couldn't see the cars behind, honking like is the sign is sign of something. ..
I was thinking to just leave the car right here and go home take bases..
Went to the driving school and got my full license.
May be one day it will be a dream,
I have everything, knocking wood now, a superstition..
All I want is the money...
I am not asking to give me money,
That what how I heard we became strong,
Smile :)


Good morning :)

Good night :)

... and I am happy. ..
I was thinking to write something ...
Then may be I feel good, it's spring,
I have people I love, amazing, beautiful people. 
Just read about the same in a magazine,
Actress says: I am so happy everyone is with me.
Going to make dinner, soup, long time ago, our only food and may be watch an old movie,
Later Jaden will go to his ... a little girl from his class and I will go to the gym...
That's the tonight plan..











day 4

Today me and some one else here are not eating,
We have only apples, I have three, she has seven
And I had coffee, somewhere in the sleeping now..
Reading newspaper, this actress turned 44 today,
They wrote in the title, at 44 she looks like 2,
Made a mistake, because later written word twenty.
I was reading only to know how she looks like 2..
My grandmother was sucking a button,
Don't ask me, she was kind of laughing, what else to expect in such young age like 88.
My aunt is at work, kind of mad:
I am like a horse with b..s,
Her slang, when she works too hard.
Last year she was sick, she can't eat sugar,
Went to the party, eat majority of the food,
Then calling us: pray for me...
And I am okay,  used old women trick,
Went to the gym..
Smile :)





Good morning :)



a story

He told me just now:
You didn't write me about love.
Honey, was I writing on Monday how much I ..
It's Wednesday now...!
I think you are right!
What my new poem will be about?
I love you, I wrote many times and it's your nickname now....
May be I should steal the best love poem from the Internet and mention your name,
Or I can translate a poem from foreign language:
You are peach of my eyes, the most beautiful flower in the world,
One thousand and one night..
May be something like this.
He doesn't buy me new clothes, doesn't give me money or diamonds.
I don't see him a lot.
All he gives me is happiness, one of the best times in my life.
What is the price?
The price of sky always sunny and bright,
What's the price of the sun shining all day and moonlight at night.
He makes me feel happy all the the time


day 3



Day 3.....


day 3

this morning at 4 am I got a phone call from my mom,
I hide sometimes like I am not home,
Then she doesn't easy stop calling,
Was military doctor for some time,
Now with her pension she needs something to be bothered..
Why Jaden doesn't speak Russian!?
How he knows I am his grandmother!
It's 4 in the morning, he knows!
Last night was my day 2 of doing something. .
I fell a sleep after dinner, with Jaden..
This morning, now,
I look like from wild African party,
I had honey, oil and mud mask on my face, didn't  wash, hair didn't brush..
have to go..



just one smile :)




day 3

We have snow storm..






Good morning :)

Good night :)

It's still snowing. ..
It's a superstition, make s wish on the last winter snow,
The wish, only a good one, will come true..
I heard in one village,
Few days we spent with people who were living there,
It was cold, and we stayed home,
Me, my sister, a few girlfriends..
Small house, warm, home made bread, milk, sour cream, traditional food,
How the smells, some times I bake bread myself because of that, yummy...

day 2

We are very romantic here now,
No lights at the building,
Watching the Oscar ceremony on the phones.
Find it kind of boring,
Movies haven't seen, dresses didn't like...

Leonardo won Oscar..
Here go Leo! Best of luck!
It's made from real gold...
Can keep on the light, 
Somewhere on the kitchen..
Leonardo (in tears): I want to say thank you to my mommy...!
I think, he is one of the best actors,
May be will watch the movie tonight..
Only after some other actors of course.
Now, will watch 90 s music and dances..
More close to real stuff...
Smile :) 

day 2

Right now we ate having a snow storm,
We walked to the café at the corner..
Got coffee..
Old man work at that place,
One day he thinks I am Polish, one day Russian,
Hungarian, Ukrainian, Polish and Russian again.
Kind of likes to talk to me,
Calls me a girl.
I am like, ha, ha, wear your glasses.
Giving me extra food: I like fat girls.
I am like: wear your glasses.
And another man here colored hair in strange unknown color.
I had a choice between laughing and saying something; it's cute.
Now he told everyone. ..
Smile :) 

just one smile :)






and first day of spring




day 2

Day 2 goes better,
I feel it already 
Kind of smiling in the mirror 
And thinking about getting up and exercise..
In school we had fitness exams ever year and
We would get up every morning and ran in the park,
Few people, I used to ran for our school team.
And now, I still can ran, not that fast but it's not jogging either.
What else? 
Still thinking which way to go: 
To the kitchen or nap with J little bit.
Dilemmas early in the morning. .

Good morning