Happy New Year :)















2015














feeling blue, but happy:)




how are the things

I packing gifts only for Jaden,
It's a big responsibility to raise a child,
But the best thing.
Before Jaden I read an interview with a pretty model.
Her husband is popular actor's son.
She has a daughter, first child:
Now I cannot imagine my life without my child,
I am very happy I have daughter.
And it is, some people, things go by and you don't care.
And some people you think all day..
It's going to be happy beautiful year:)

Good morning :)




...




I like everything,
You do or say or think,
Speaking in easy way. 
I love personal pictures.
It's very clear.
Only sometimes I don't know
Who's talking, what talking about.
May be it's the wild child or cool boy talking with friends.
You know right, understand:)
I don't want to interrupt, or put thousand likes...
Okay 



Good night :) one more time






Monkey year


now

Talking to my grandmother,
For one more hour at least,
She has nothing to do.
Sleep:)


just a thought

What is your first New Year wish will be.
I only celebrate New Year,
It's supposed to be special time with family.
And I got my gift today already.
For me always is being healthy,
We believe that every year you have to feel better,
Really take care of yourself, people you care.
I don't want much, my family, who I love.
And that's all.
Food, few movies, creams, gels,
All I like...

have to call grandma


Good night :)

....

I'm using my cell phone wifi to check on him,
Make sure he is all right, secretly.
Today I said, I am strict, one second.
And I think he said something like not feeling the same, or wasn't, not very clear after word not
And I am like 
Oh, baby are you okay,
What happened, tell me,
Everything is going to be great!
Who us upsetting my baby.
Then he put a picture...
More then an hour now.

tell me

Tell me who do you want me to be?
Do you want me to be your sister
And call you every day asking something for me.
Me, only, and you better inspire me well,
Be the best role model sister looking up to.
Do you want me to be your friend 
And call when I want, waiting every day that you call. 
Share few jokes about dumb blonds,
Go out watch a movie, play a game or study a nudity magazine,
Then go to gym for hours.
Have fast food for dinner and do nothing, drive around. 
Watch sunset together, have fun in any weather.
Do you want me to be your mother,
Making sure you eat your breakfast, lunch and dinner. 
Cooking non stop healthy food.
I want my baby, grown up baby, to be healthy.
My baby... (kissing a bit).
Wearing warm clothes at winter,
Staying cool at summer.
Taking care of yourself, sleeping well.
Are you okay, are you happy?
Exercise, watch people around, do more with your life.
Do you want me to be the love one.
But you know it's sister,  mother and a friend together.
And pretty much forever.
Like ....... (beeps) yes, honey!
I love you too.

Good night :)

Are you going to sleep now :)
Make sure at least sleep and eat properly.
Something like this.
He is like yes...
Sleepy time:)




just a thought

I was driving, we had a lot of snow,
Today is perfect, dark.
Road is clear, a bus is speeding up in front.
I am following this bus.
I stop to send hi to my sister and mom,
Today they are in emotional crises.
Looking at the videos and pictures,
Some duck uped comments.
I am out of my mind.
Some words I am not used to say,
May be think too.
Few minutes of...
And then he uploaded his beautiful picture.
He is looking hot and good looking.
So on...and on, confident, strong.
I am going to watch new Star Wars movie.

just a thought

I just realized today,
I want nothing at all,
Only me and few special people be fine.
That's all.
One short poem.

first snow



Good night :)



Four women

Four women sitting on a bench.
Bright sky, green land, free wind,
They looking far.
The oldest woman very strong, the leader.
You see when nodding head before you think
Who is she is.
Her only word, that makes it all,
What says, it what will be.
And nothing in the world can go against her word.
One time with no chance at all,
She said we stay and win, few people with her,
They did because of only her impossible believe.
Like snow white, blue eyes, clear.
White hair, winter cold, doesn't like talk.
Only softly touching hand.
You will be fine.
That's all.
Near on the right, bright brown almost sparkly hair chubby woman,
She likes highlights with hena.
Her weight her only problem,
All everything is always good.
She knows nature best of all.
Fist on the left another blond, not very old.
She doesn't believe to any one:
Oh, really, who said that now?
Let me see, and worries blown in the air.
The forth woman is young, 
She laughs and smiles, always happy and
Can make you happy in a second.
Four women sitting on the bench. ..



And I am happy :)

I am busy today, but not for him,
He has beautiful pictures,
Instantly I feel happy.
I supposed to organize my paper work and 
Now I am writing a poem.
We had a little argument,
Not about philosophy.
I think we have different global believes.
That's personal choice and constitutional right,
It's fine with me.
Just be happy and healthy, feel great,
Whatever makes you happy,
Sleep well, eat well, exercise, write and talk.
That's all 






just a thought

Was talking to my mom,
It's kind of tradition to give a lesson
Every time I call..
She said today:
Show you love and care to people
Who are here with you now,
Give them more.
Only to who are living.
Who are gone, don't need anything,
May be think once in a while.
A friend is sick, may be getting better a bit,
No one knows, doctors either, only luck now..

Good morning :)

Just a thought (not mine):
I've done good things for strangers,
People I didn't care to know,
Who they are, what they are, whatever.
And I am thinking now what can I do for the right one, special.
I will sound like all my family:
That's right, that's the right thing to do,
It's perfect..

..

We can ask sometimes,
We can ask many times for who we love.
Don't you think, I ask about my children,
It's not a question,
Let me laugh again:)

...

It's a beautiful beautiful day,
Bright and sunny, spring.
She is touching his hand and says:
Smile, don't you remember,
How we met?
It was spring.
She is smiling too.
We can make trough everything,
Whatever we do.
Before I had doubts, but not any more.
When you need, me or my friends will be here for you.
Remember that only, and forget everything else.
Like in a song:
We go with you like in a war,
Even don't like it, we stay for you

dream

In high school I had a dream,
Who dreamed what,
I dreamed to become a prostitute.
A movie, few pictures and since then,
I've never left mini skirts,
And now too, in my age.
Anyway, this dream never came true.
My mom should thank me for that,
Me and my girlfriends were having a party.
Loud music, dancing, dressed very inappropriately,
Lots of make up, high hills mothers' shoes and little bit of clothes.
It was around New Year.
We were making candies,
Boiling sugar in water, forgot about turned on stove.
Loudest knocking at the door,
Neighbour and firefighters:
What are doing girls?
My kitchen is full of smoke, stinky.
The firefighter in charge looking suspiciously,
Why school girls dressed like hookers.
They couldn't even flirt with us.
He is calling my mom,
She is home in a few minutes.
Was reading me non stop lectures until she started to go with this firefighter out.
For about a week.
In the last grade one girl I used to know
Announced publicly that now on she is the one.
We are walking with dogs,
She is getting ready to go out.
How jealous we was.
All watching her getting in BMW,
Like in a movie, wiping happiness tears,
Waving for good luck.
An hour after we are cleaning this car all night.
She lied, trew up everywhere after drinking.
And it was it.




just a thought

I was mumbling something about friendship
And he sent me on of the most beautiful pictures,
His..

just a thought

I think Jaden ( my son),
Will bring home a fat woman,
One day when he grows up.
I talk about being fat, like a slang:
I am fat.
And he is like:
I love your fat belly.
Lies on me, like a baby,
Really enjoying me being fat.

movies. ..