1.
11
. When I got to Canada
I only knew how to
say:
Hi, my name is Irina.
No English, no
friends.
Would it make sense?
Then a fortune cookie
Told me to stay and
try
To follow my dream
anyway.
I believed.
I followed my dream,
may be my heart.
Had no idea where I
would go,
What I would find,
But I never looked
back.
Yesterday time was
not in my mind.
2.
12. I have known her since I was 10 years old.
We have the same
story,
The same all.
Parents that went separate
ways,
School, streets
after,
Lots of new friends.
It was our way not by
the choice.
Lots of make up,
tight uniforms.
We were 90th high
school girls.
She started to drink,
I followed her
Until someone opened
the first art school.
It game me a shelter,
It gave me a hope.
And all she did - she
said "no",
Wasting of time,
boring, for kids.
Now she is still on
those old streets.
We were in the same class, school together for ten years,
Years after, she doesn't remember even my name.
14. I heard from a special person
on special time
Something you will
believe or may be just try.
Turn to the sun and
close your eyes.
Look very deep
inside, the deepest you can.
Ask what you deserve
the most, ask well.
And trough the
darkness try find brightest light.
The light will shine
from inside.
In shape of a bell
with open wings.
People say this is
your Guardian Angel.
15. I will finish my family working story,
Will talk a bit about
my stepbrothers.
They are both
businessmen,
But first, of course,
married men.
I think they would
love to care more about their work, only what the wives will say again,
On the phone calling:
When are you going to be at home?
Both my stepbrothers
are under 100% control.
Like in army, step a
side considers as running away time.
One time I was in a
store with him, his wife and my father, buying a cake for their daughter,
And some girl from
the counter smiled:
Thanks for driving us
home last night.
We all were
speechless for a minute
Probably knew where
it all will be going.
His wife smiled too:
That's very nice.
And not a word on the
way home.
Near the door,
holding ten bags in each hand,
My stepbrother
whispered:
She is going to kill
me now.
They had a huge
fight, because he was not allowed to drive a woman in the car.
And he didn't tell
anything,
Even bigger thing...
What he thinks she is
stupid,
Letting her husband
go with a woman.
Now, since they have
a baby,
He is going
everywhere with the baby,
Or with his daughter
or son.
Never alone, who
would him alone leave home.
His friends gave up
on him,
Calling only when
they have a reason talk about diapers or wipes,
Or have a picnic with
all kids and wives.
16. I go to work to relax,
I hope its not a
surprise.
I cannot be busy at
work and at home,
I had to choose,
It works well so far
and since we talk about work,
This how my relatives
work.
My sister is always
in thoughts about her husband.
They are in love.
She goes to work to
dream and plan dinner.
My father has a
simple office, he doesn't like much stuff.
Lots of food in the
fridge, he has one,
And desk is enough.
The most important
part,
The lock from inside.
Before my
stepbrothers got married,
They used to bring
girls to my father's doctor office all the time,
After 6 o'clock when
he was at home on his farm.
All the years, the
nurses thought that my father was bringing different women.
Who could say
anything to a doctor anyway,
May be only his wife.
My aunt has and has a
big couch at her office.
She works until its
dark and she is afraid to go outside.
Shower in the sink,
cookies and tea.
My mom always had
opened doors,
She had 5 minutes for
each patients, because then she was becoming inpatient:
Show me x-ray,
everything is okay, goodbye.
What complaints, go
see a physiatrist.
My grandmother had
the nicest office,
She was a boss,
everything new, clean, but you cannot touch.
Only for meetings,
for our city leaders.
Porters of communist
leaders on the walls everywhere.
My uncle had a dog at
work,
His wife told she or
dog would have to go.
My uncle looked at
the dog first,
Then he had to live
at work for about a month,
The wife was mad.
Letter some couple
liked the dog and my uncle could go home,
I think he still
apologize for looking at the dog first.
17. One more talk
about women.
When my stepbrother
divorced
He promised,
He will never go with
woman again.
Fine, go with a man.
When I look at him,
After some hiding we
all were informed by a strange girl.
The first minute I
knew,
He will not pull it
off.
Asking about food,
House keys on the
neck,
Otherwise cannot find
anywhere.
Tooth paste on the
face,
Reading newspapers...
Mather calling
everyday:
Are you baby okay?
We will stop by.
He had to clean the apartment all night.
My father laughed,
Vitali,
There is no a married
man,
Who didn't wish to be
single
At least once in the
life.
Then papa mentioned:
May be we all can be
one happy family.
I said: Papa, are you
an idiot?
Have you, mom, your
second wife
In my life at the
same place, same room, same time!
My father choked:
You are right, didn't
think that far.
After a few months
the new girlfriend,
Now wife,
Stepped in.
Of course, his mother
didn't like new girl first.
I know what she
wants,
Yes, mama, what?
You gained some
weight.
She is cooking very
well.
Really?
Every single day, and
very clean,
Washes my clothes,
buys food,
Waiting me from work
with warm dinner.
The fridge is not
empty.
May be she is okay.
So, what are you waiting for?
18. Since we talk about our women...
My stepbrothers,
They both now completely brainwashed.
First, of course their mother,
She raised them good enough
To push to the wife.
That's what our goal,
Educate enough a son,
So he can get out,
Not on the street,
To another woman.
Thats when our job is done.
At 16 parents talk loud about future marriage,
Books, magazines, money saving,
Whatever it takes to push in the right
direction.
All day long, she, she, she, she are the good
girls.
My stepbrothers had so many girlfriends,
Cannot count.
Were afraid to say a word to mama and papa.
After all,
Only the wives were allowed to walk home.
And mama was watching every step, expecting
daily report,
Driving them both insane,
We became even friends,
Our parents problems stopped making sense.
I used to cover them up all the time.
Only if I liked the girl too.
If not, I wasn't home, sorry.
Later the wives walked in.
The first word was:
I don't think so.
Don't like, good, go to your mama.
Don't kiss me now..
Get out.
Mad!
Here a few tears: you don't love me.
But who would want to go to mama in right
mind.
So they had to stop pretty much everything,
Except being a good man.
Drinking, smoking, going out with friends,
Saturday is family time,
Look at fifty pieces dinner,
I made it for you,
Look home made juice,
My favorite movie.
Fine, fine… you can have tea
spoon of beer,
But I will be mad for a year.
New women wrote what they want on the paper,
Signed it, must follow.
If the bedroom where you want to go...
19. My stepbrothers don't drink,
don't smoke.
Not allowed.
Only on Christmas Eve, glass of champagne
together with the family.
The older one tried to smoke in front of his
first wife,
Then fiancé.
He would prefer to hide, because she was
choking and coughing, huge opened eyes:
You are smoking?!
Of course both parents from both sides were
notified immediately.
Apparently his own mother had no idea.
It was complete a crime not tell something to
you mother,
Even if out of mind.
Grandmothers informed for a good reason.
After seeing old grandma wiping tears,
Asking if she did something wrong when he was
four.
After looking in mother in law mad eyes:
"How could you do this to your future
wife,
What about the children?
Do you want them be idiots.
All my friends sons stopped immediately!"
After shaking father in law' s hand:
"Vitali, be a man".
My stepbrother knew, he will loose smoking
fight.
Plus he was not allowed to smooke in the
apartment,
Not on the balcony either.
On twelve floor, not near the door.
Neighbors called to fire station a few times:
Kids want to burn our house.
Elevator was not working,
He had to go downstairs.
How could he leave his future wife for fifteen
minutes while.
In four months no one in new future family was
thinking to give up.
It was the end of smoking.
20. Let's talk a bit about our women,
Read today on one site,
They (mean us from our mothers country) let
their men do what they want,
This why our new homes are here.
I don't think that's very true,
I have never met anyone like this,
May be in the mirror?
I am smiling...
Our women one of the most controlling of all,
But everything is so nice,
Loving beautiful eyes,
You are number one man.
Breakfast in bed, calories counted lunch,
Dinner, new everyday.
We are watching your weight.
Listening, laughing on each word you would
say.
Illusion of freedom kissed many times all over
your face, everywhere,
You start to believe in it.
After all, what you get,
For doing what she wants is not a big deal any
more.
Especially nothing to do much,
Only fully agree.
21. One time I asked old lady
How can she help somebody
Without really know them,
Not being a doctor,
Just touching hands.
She said, you see the image.
And this image comes once in a while in your
mind.
This when you, yourself smile,
Because you know you can help,
Everything will be fine.
You can see yourself
At that time,
You talk to this person, smile, make laugh,
give a hug.
You at home look at the sky,
Smile again, because the sky with you already.
When the first picture gone,
This when the person recovers.
You start to feel happy
When you touch hand, you giving the energy,
You feel heat from the skin,
You believe so strong,
Nothing ever goes wrong.
22. My girlfriend has two teenagers,
And so far they know nothing.
A file ago they lost all the books they
borrowed,
And after a home investigation,
All she could get: we don't know,
Why do you always freak out mama!
Last time were new shoes left in Mc Donald's,
A bag lost in the school bus before the
classes,
House keys wouldn't even count...
23. One time we had fireworks in
my house,
Was after New Year,
Me and a few school girlfriends,
And we burned the Christmas tree.
The firefighters walked in,
They said never seen anything like that:
School girls dressed like hookers drinking
champagne.
The boss of that rout had to talk my mother or
father.
I had to call to my mom lying about a bomb.
This how she meet her new boyfriend.
